| All i asked for was the truth, something I could believe in despite the lies. But now I think I've stumbled upon your lie and it really makes me wonder if I can believe anything you say ever again. Cause if this is a lie, you won't see or hear from me ever again. And that's not a lie
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| I am so fucking tired of his place. I'm so fucking tired of compromising myself to make everyone else happy especially when all I get back is shit in my face. I maybe alot but I don't deserve shit thrown in my face especially from people who don't want shit thrown back into their face. But one day I will be gone and I won't care if they feel like I'm throwing shit back in their face. If you throw shit sometimes it bounces on some rubber and hits you. So fuck that shit. |
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| I can't do anything right. It's always one step forward and a million steps backwards. Idk why I even try anymore, I should've just given up months ago. I hate being grown up. What happened to the days when you'd fall down and someone was always there to kiss your boo boos? |
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| I guess I should've stopped being naive about going there. I guess I thought if the situation went there I'd have more guts and alot less nerves. But it was all nerves cause even now idk what I think or what to think. It's just so so weird. I'm half way into the fetal position on this one. But thank God it didn't go as far as it could've. It's just so weird. |
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| How did everything get so messed up? I just want to get away from it all. I thought I needed a vacation from my habitat but it's like I need a vacation from my life. I'm so tired of everything being a fight and everyone being so angry. I just want to be happy again and to laugh again. I'm tired of hurting and crying. And everyone and their different agendas, it's so stifling. I know things like this should bring us closer but I just want to get away. I don't want to be angry anymore and I don't want to fight or live with the attitudes. I don't want love if all we're going to do is sit here and be miserable. I just want to be myself. And myself needs a vacation from them all. Some place far where no one knows me or my name or my family. Some place where I'm not the girl who lost her father or her aunt or her cousin. Some place where none of the drama exsists. Some where when no one can hurt me...esp love. Somewhere where I don't need or want anyone or anything. I need a vacation from life. |
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